I find myself thinking of many things today…
I’ve said this before… but I love when my friends and family share their hearts! And I am not just talking about sharing their feelings or emotions…I am talking about shapes of hearts! Hearts found on cats, heart rocks, a heart shaped cloud! I have been finding hearts in odd places since Jackie passed and I love when others find them too. Keep sharing everyone! I love it!
A fellow heart mama is with her kiddo at Cardinal Glennon undergoing a procedure. I have had a few conversations with her and she is an active reader of my blog. I can’t help but to feel…I am sharing with her the stress, the roller coaster ride that her and her husband are living…I feel for them while she posts her updates that I anxiously wait for. I have told her before that they are living the life that we would’ve lived…we are the other side of that coin. She is apart of the group of heart mom’s who take their kiddos to appointment after appointment in hopes that they will be healed/cured and never step foot in the hospital again…or at least only go because your son decided to stick a Lego in his ear. I have thought of this life often…I have wondered how we would’ve handled it, could we handle it? It takes a special family, a strong family to fight along side their babies with heart defects. Every appointment, every procedure, every surgery is a critical moment. Your babies are in the hands of the surgeons and boy how fabulous they are…but it still does not take away the stress…the what ifs. I read and stand along side this heart mom through every update that she provides…I relive our small amount time that we had with Jackie understanding the stresses that she and her family are facing. These heart mamas deserve the utmost respect…they are brave…they are kind…they have hope in their hearts that travels the length of the ocean ten times over. I am proud to call this heart mama my friend and I will continue to stand by her through her journey. I write this knowing that she will read it…I write this to tell her once again that I am here and I will continue to be here. I am listening and I am praying. And as tears well up in the corner of my eyes, I know that Jackie is looking out for William. I know that Jackie hears my thoughts and my prayers for your family and I know, because I feel it to my core, that Jackie is watching over William…because I asked him to. I am sending love your way mama, stay brave, stay strong…you got this!
Mothers Day is quickly approaching and though I have many thoughts…I can’t seem to get out the words that I want to say. Tears are welling, the wave is building on the horizon…so before I get overwhelmed by emotion I’ll leave you with this link:
I highly recommend this read: https://www.laurelbox.com/pages/themagazine Make sure to have your tissues ready!
We love you!
#ourjackofhearts #angelmommy