I had an old roommate of mine share this May Facebook event with me today. I am not sure how well I will do with this, but I thought I would give it a shot.
Here is the link https://www.facebook.com/events/180738925752580/ for more info if you are curious what this event is. Basically it is a world wide online event dedicating a little bit of time each day for a month towards healthy grieving and healing. I will be following prompts each day beginning, May 1st, till the end of the month, May 31st.
1. IMAGINE
This is something that is quite hard for me. It is the imagining that brings me the most sadness. I long for the pictures and dreams that play so vividly in my mind…the family photos we would have taken, the play dates, the memories we would have created…all of the hopes and dreams I had for our small perfect family.
There are two beautiful babies that were born in my circle within days of Jackie…and every time I see photos or videos of them I can’t help but to imagine what our sweet boy would look like now…what milestone would he have conquered… I have stated before that this is our selfishness…this longing of what should have been, what could have been…Jackie is not in pain…he is in a beautiful place.
When I become sad with the thoughts I have here, I try to turn my mind to him and where he is. One of my favorite thoughts I found was on Pinterest.
How amazing is this to imagine! So though I tend to imagine the daily events that he is missing…I try my best to imagine this instead. Sometimes it still makes me sad and other times it fuels me to be the very best that I can each and everyday. Knowing that he is watching…knowing that I want him to be proud to say, “that’s my mom!”
Mommy loves you!
#mayweallheal #mwah2017 #thisoneisforJackie