March 18, 2016
I have sat and starred at a blank piece of “electronic” paper for weeks. As a stare I have thought about what I would say or even if I should say anything at all. It’s not often that I feel a deep desire to share a heartache with social media. I have a very large strong support group that I utilize for these very heartache moments when they present themselves in my life. For some reason this topic, this event feels different. I have this feeling inside that tells me that I need to share. I need to tell. I need to talk. Before I share and before you feel “sorry for me”… I want to ask you to not feel sorry. I do not need, nor am I sharing this experience with you all so that you can feel bad or sorry for me. That is not the nature of this share or why I feel so compelled to share it. To be completely honest, I can’t help but to hear my Dad’s words, “everything happens for a reason” ring through my mind on a daily basis. That statement is the driving force behind my share. I haven’t been able to completely find my why and deep down inside I feel that I will discover it through my share. I need to talk. I need to tell. Somewhere during this share I will discover my why.
We love you Bear!
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