14. REMEMBER
When I woke up this morning I received a kiss from my husband, like every morning before. He got up and started getting ready…I stayed in bed with the pups for some extra dog-mommy snugs. I sat in bed and was trying to decide what kind of day I was going to have today…if that is at all possible on a day that has so much power over my thoughts and emotions. It was moments later that I received the most amazing text message from an insanely close family member. She started by listing qualities about me that inspire her everyday and then proceeded to tell me that these qualities then exploded into something more beautiful when I became a Mom. She told me how fiercely I love and fight for my baby boy each and everyday.
I needed to hear the words she told me.
My Niece brought over flowers and a Happy Mother’s Day card! My heart exploded as she walked in with her Mom and Grams…she had a large grin on her face and her hands behind her back…she had a surprise for her Aunt!!! She helped me put her handmade card on our fridge where it is now proudly displayed!
Today could be a harsh reality check that my babies are not here…or…it could be a day of celebration. A celebration that I am a Mom. My babies may not be here physically but that does not take away the fact that I am a Mom! Everyday I am a Mom. I choose to celebrate this day and to thank the stars above for being a Mom of two sweet angels that look over us every single day. We feel their presence…they constantly remind us that they love us as much as we love them. I choose to remind myself today of all the beautiful memories I have of Jackie…I choose to remember that I am a Mom even if everyone can’t see that.
I love being a Mommy…I love being a dog mom…and I love being an Angel Mom! Yes…it is not an easy path that was chosen for me…but I will celebrate…because I am a Mom…and nothing can take that away from me…and nothing can take away the pride that I feel. I have two amazing children and just like other kiddos that give their moms flowers and cards…I get hearts in the sky.
I will always remember my Angels, I will always love and fight for their memories, I will always do my best to make them proud…today and everyday! I know that they love me and I know that they are with me today…they also want me to celebrate…I can feel it.
Today…I will remember…I am a Mom!
We love you Bear and Jackie!
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