26. LOVE
There is something insanely magical about the love you feel for your children. This love begins as soon as you see those two pink lines and it continues to grow as this alien like creature grows inside of you, kicking you, punching your bladder, and dancing in the middle of night while you are trying to sleep. You form this image of what they will look like from the ultrasound pictures that you proudly display. Your heart is full of love and you almost feel like it will burst when you think of the day you will meet this baby face to face. You’ve already learned so much about each other and then one day…you go into labor…it’s happening…you finally get to meet! You push and push what seems to be the largest bowel movement you’ve ever had…the nurses instruct you to push from your vagina, something you’ve never done…you consintrate and focus and still only know how to push one way…so you push…and all of a sudden you hear the sweetest faint cry…and the doctors hold up this beautiful baby boy with dark brown hair and your heart just smiles. Your heart is full of joy and happiness…you’ve never felt this before. This is a love that is so pure. It’s so instant…and nothing could ever take it away.
They say love lasts forever, love extends the galaxy, love is not bound to earth and can reach heaven. Love is what makes saying goodbye so incredibly hard. Love fuels my happiness but it also fuels my pain. How lucky I am to have felt this kind of love…and as hard as some days are…I still feel lucky. So many women long to have that experience and never can…I may have had to give my beautiful baby back…but I will always have the love between us. That love will never die.
We love you!
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