I decided to add a new collection to the blog…Bereaved and Trying to Conceive. I hope you find this helpful as you search and read about my Journey. As I had stated in my last post, Jack and I have been trying to conceive. Trying with no success. I have found that I find myself right back where I was when we began trying years ago. The trying roller coaster if you will.
As many of you know from reading “Our Journey to Jackie” it took us 11 months to conceive Bear (our miscarriage) followed by 3 months to conceive Jackie. And though I am riding a similar emotional roller coaster this one differs from before. I no longer wonder if we can conceive, we have conceived twice…however, I do wonder if we can conceive again. Google is sometimes my worst enemy as I read about struggling to conceive…secondary infertility. Jack and I never sought help through our primary trying journey and we took our doctor’s advice giving ourselves a year to conceive. The question we found ourselves asking this time was…how long do you wait to seek help for your next? It only took 3 months to conceive Jackie.
I recently reached out to my doctor for assistance and asked what small steps we could take to help aid in our chances to conceive. I also have my acupuncturist assisting in this department. My doctor suggested that we confirm that I am ovulating by an official blood test. Seemed like a great starting point and something that I was confident would come back positive. I say this because I track my cycles. I am a temper, a charter, a Kindara user and I have charted my temps since January of 2015 tracking my cycles and watching for temperature shifts to confirm ovulation, followed by the dreadful 2WW (two week wait).
That being said, I had my first blood draw the Friday after Thanksgiving. My doctor called me the following day stating that the test came back negative…I had not or did not ovulate. This appeared to be correct judging by my Kindara chart and so we rescheduled my blood test for Wednesday November 26th. I sat at my desk typing this post anxiously awaiting the outcome of the test. Wondering what it would mean if my chart says one thing but the blood test says another. It is amazing what waiting can do to your stress level and to your thoughts. Waiting…waiting…waiting. I had thoughts of secondary infertility and the thought that we may never get pregnant again. To say I was becoming anxious is an understatement.
Hours went by, I went to work, and I was finally able to connect with my doctor at 5pm Thursday evening. Ovulation was confirmed by a surge in progesterone from my blood test Friday to my test that was taken on Wednesday! RELEIF! Instant relief and joyful music played through my mind. Luckily this is one obstacle that we need not to worry about. At this time it appears my body is functioning properly. I will continue to focus on my anxiety levels with my acupuncturist, continue to heal, and hopefully maintain the positive thoughts that now ring through my mind after hearing this wonderful news.
We love you Jackie!
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