- SUNRISE
Sunrise…sunset…a new day…a new dawn…renewal…beginnings…fresh perspective…warmth…healing.
The sun has become an influential healer along my grief journey. For its ability to brighten the night skies bringing a sense of new beginnings and also for its ability to warm your body’s mind and soul.
Oftentimes it is during the night that my grief demons come to visit me and when the morning comes, along with the sun, a sense of new hope and happiness comes with it. Everyday is a blessing. A new beginning to be grateful for this life. There might not be good in everyday but there’s something good about everyday…think about that.
For the past two years my husband and I have found ourselves escaping the cold often cloudy skied winter of the midwest to find sunshine in Florida. It is the warmth of the sun and the sound of the beach that calls us back each time. These trips have become essential for us. Winter itself is dreary but for us winter is also the time in which we lost our son…the cold and grey skies only thicken our grief during that time. When we make our trips and reach the beach it reminds me of the feeling you get during the springtime. You know when it’s still chilly when the wind blows but when the wind rests you can feel the warmth of the sun kissing your skin. It feels refreshing, comforting…as if Mother Nature herself is embracing you. It just makes you feel good…your body begins to relax because it is warm and not constricted from trying to stay warm in the bitter cold. You breathe a little deeper and you just feel at peace. At peace with the world and at peace with your soul.
Night and Day…Cold and Hot…Grief and Happiness. It is the roller coaster ride of the bereaved. The highs and lows of life twisting and turning each and everyday. The sunrise is always a happy way to begin the day but from there we never know what triggers will rear themselves throughout the day or what joys beckon beyond the warmth of the sun. Each day is different. Each day is new.
As I watered my garden and plants this morning in the sunshine I am hopeful of the day. Hopeful to have more highs than lows and blessed that I was given this not so easy role in life because it has allowed me to have fresh perspective…it allows me to be grateful for the little things and to never take one sunrise for granted.
We love you Bear, Jackie, and Peanut!
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