May We All Heal – Day 6

6. MOTHER 

I think I have been in someway avoiding this one. One, because I tend to save my writing for during the week and two, well because Mother’s Day is quickly approaching…it will be my second Mother’s Day without our son and…well…it just makes me sad. Here I am…a Mother to Angels. The thing I struggle the most with being an Angel Mommy is that there are many outsiders who don’t know…they see me walking the isles of Target with no kiddos not realizing that I am a Mom. I wish there was a text bubble above me at times that said “I’m a Mom.”

The other part of being an Angel Mama that is difficult for me is that I have this strong desire to “mother”. I find myself “mothering” our dogs in a strong way as well as tending to our garden. We recently brought chickens into our family and I was quick to become their mama hen. These fluff-butts have me wrapped around their little feathers…one chirp and I come running to check their water, check their food, check their brooder for too much poop, check the heat lamp…and I make adjustments accordingly. I literally did not sleep the first night we brought them home…I was constantly up checking on them. I have adjusted to them as much as they had to adjust to their new environment and we are all slowly getting the hang of this…except Obie…Obie is our rescue pup and he keeps looking at our girls as though they are all chew-toys.

I have a lot of love to give…a lot of love that developed during my pregnancies that has no physical children to give it to. It has to go somewhere.

We love you Bear, Jackie, and Peanut!

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