8. ANGER
Anger is just one of those emotions that tends to pop up out of nowhere for me. It is formed mostly from when I do not allow myself the time and space that I need to process my emotions. Anger just seems to be the easiest way to feel about something before I actually sit down and think about the situation. It’s easy to place blame and it’s easy to be angry.
I recall a Facebook post regarding another bereaved Mama and how she was reacting years later from the death of her son. She was angry…extremely angry…placing blame of her son’s death on his friends that were present at the accident. The accident itself had taken place around 10 years prior to her rant on Facebook. I remember reading it and telling myself that I refused to be that Mom. I would in no way blame the hospital, the doctors, nurses, surgeons…I would not allow myself to live in that dark place. I visited there…a few times…I felt those emotions and I thought those thoughts but I choose the path to not place blame…to not be angry at them…they did the best they could and that is all I could ask for.
We love you Bear, Jackie, and Peanut!
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