May 25th…Pregnant!

I am almost at a loss for words this morning…we are pregnant continues to ring through my mind…a large smile is upon my face but I am at the same time in shock…I don’t believe it…this cannot be real life! It actually happened! They did it…Dr. Cooper and her team actually did it!

There is calm to my disbelief. A calm that I have not experienced…it certainly was not present for our pregnancy this past December that ended in a miscarriage. I felt nothing but shock and panic with that pregnancy…I was a ball of nervous energy…and my biggest fear reared its ugly self just weeks later.

I am at peace…I am happy…I am ready. I keep looking down at my lose belly flab that has not left from my pregnancy with Jackie and I cannot help but to have tears in my eyes and a smile upon my heart. There is once again life! Life is growing inside of me. With all the hope in the world I hope so hard for a happy healthy 9 months and beyond. This child is growing inside of one of the most blessed honored Mamas.

To my dearest growing Nemo, 

You are already so very loved. Your parents worked very hard to create you along with a team of highly qualified fertility specialists. You were conceived out of love with a little help from science. You are part of a large family though you may not understand that until you are much older. You have three wonderful siblings all of which will be looking after you everyday. Mommy and Daddy do not know if Bear or Peanut were boys or girls but we do know that they are with our dear Son, your brother, in heaven. You will grow up with bereaved parents…bereaved parents who understand just how precious you are…what a miracle you are. Your entire family has been waiting for you and will anxiously be awaiting your arrival into our arms…from your newly chicken sisters, two doggie brothers, Grandparents, Aunts, Uncles, Aunties, Cousins and so many many more. You my dear Nemo are our rainbow after the storm. A very long storm that has molded your parents into humble, loving, caring, honored, blessed people. You will grow up learning about your parents past and helping us celebrate your siblings and above all you will be loved…loved every single day…every single second. You were wanted. You were prayed for. And now you are here! Welcome to our family little one, we cannot wait to meet you! 

With all my love,

Mom 

We love you Bear, Jackie, Peanut, and arriving January 2019…Nemo!

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