July 13th
This past week has been mentally and physically draining. I ended up with a stomach bug that quickly arrived Tuesday morning. I will spare you all the gory details of the day however, I spent the day under the care of my Mom and trying my hardest to replenish fluids as quickly as they were leaving my body. As miserable as I was physically that day and further into the week it was the mental anxiety that continues to linger. I finally feel physically stronger after days of weakness but I am mentally in a panic.
We were released from Dr. Cooper’s care last week on July 5th and we do not meet our new provider until next Thursday July 19th. I am a concerned Mama…I just want to know that our baby is okay. That I managed to keep myself and baby hydrated during this horrific sickness. I want to put myself in a bubble the rest of this pregnancy. I literally would not wish what I had on even my worst enemy…not that I have any…but you know what I mean.
I am doing my best to assure myself that everything is fine. The baby is fine.
It’s just hard…especially after feeling so miserable. It is hard to not think that the stomach bug had some sort of negative effect on our precious baby. That this is just the beginning of the shoe beginning to drop…that this is the start of our bad news…
I need Thursday’s appointment. I need to see baby and for the Doc to say that everything looks great.
We love you Bear, Jackie, Peanut, and Nemo!
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