Sorry for the silence all. If there is such a thing as Pregnancy-Brain Writers Block…I am feeling it.
As I mentioned in my last post I am struggling to find the words. I am not only struggling to find the words for the blog but I am struggling in general to find to the words throughout my normal day. I just feel disconnected from my thoughts…or maybe unsure…I just feel off. It doesn’t help that I am extremely hormonal. I’m mad, I’m agitated, I’m overall grumpy…about the silliest things…small things. Then on the other hand I am joyful and feel overly blessed. It’s all pretty foggy in my head these days as we quickly approach the holidays…quickly approach Jackie’s 2nd Birthday…quickly approach Lizzy’s due date.
Here are my posts from her BIG appointments!
September 13th
Today was a day filled with emotions. Today was Lizzy Lee’s 20 week anatomy scan. I have been anxiously awaiting this appointment since we found out we were pregnant. It’s the exact appointment that our entire world blew up while we were pregnant with Jackie. I grew more and more nervous as we approached this appointment for our baby girl.
I could barely eat this morning. I tapped my foot on the floorboard the entire drive, I twirled my hair, and I even contemplated biting my finger nails. We sat in the waiting room awaiting our fate. Would we be leaving wearing smiles or concern?
Nothing but good news is all I have to report to you all about our Elizabeth! She is growing beautifully. She is in the 54th percentile, she is 12 ounces, her organs are located exactly where they should be, and her heart looked beautiful. She still has an echocardiogram scheduled for October 19th….this is simply for precaution.
Jack and I watched our Lizzy flip and turn on the screen while the ultrasound tech worked her magic. Jack stated that she looked like a Monkey in there…and that she did….the cutest little Monkey.
She is halfway cooked….today was a good day…and I am going to soak up all the goodness that I feel now just incase I need to recall it when I am having a bad day.
October 19th
Today was another big day for our Lizzy Lee. She had her precautionary echocardiogram and she passed with flying colors. This Mama is filled with joy and relief. She continues to ease my nerves over and over again proving that she is one healthy baby girl.
Lizzy has another ultrasound on November 8th. I am looking forward to seeing her again. We will also be beginning our every 2 week schedule with our care team. It almost seems unreal how quickly time is moving.
November 8th
I could literally stay in the ultrasound room all day watching our wiggle worm and her amazing amount of expressions. We are 28 weeks and today’s appointment was by far my favorite as we watched Lizzy perform for us on the tv screen above.
Our high risk doctor has officially placed us in the hands of the generalist…which is exciting and nerve wrecking all at the same time. And we will now begin our appointments every two weeks.
It will not be too much longer and Elizabeth will be joining us…we are beyond ready
We love you Bear, Jackie, Peanut, and Lizzy!
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