Today is the day! It is currently 7:30 am, I have already text messaged many of my friends telling them of my feelings this morning. I am anxious excited nervous ready…sad happy…let’s do this! We finally can move forward just a smidgen. While we awaited the news regarding funding for the test, we knew that most likely we would not be able to afford the test on our own. This of course put us in a limbo of…will we even have this test done? Luckily, we have been blessed! We can now meet with the genetic team at Cardinal Glennon this morning at 9 am, give them blood samples, and learn about what this test will show us. Once our blood is collected, it will be sent off for research…from there we will await results for three months. I am already expecting these three months to feel like a year long wait.
To be completely honest regarding my mixed feelings…the nervous feelings I believe to be more rooted in the fact that this will be the first time back to Cardinal Glennon since Jackie’s passing. Yes I am also a little nervous about the test but, I have been wanting to go back to say thank you and see so many of the wonderful faces that I have been missing, however…it’s just been too hard. Now, we have a really good excuse to go back…and while I am very excited to get this test started and to learn about what it may find…I do find myself very nervous to go back. So many feelings…so many memories. Cardinal Glennon is/was Jackie’s home. It’s where his entire life took place. I pray for strength today as we get ready this morning and go back to where it all started. Cardinal Glennon has been apart of our lives since week 20. I miss so many of the beautiful caring people…I just hope I have the strength to set foot in a place that brings out some of the best and worst memories of my life. I know Jackie will be with us today as he is everyday…I just need a little extra love and support today.
Let’s do this!
We love you Jackie!
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