6. PATIENCE
Patience is a virtue. We have all heard this phrase, we have all had to wait for something that we want right now. You wait for your sandwich at the drive-thru, you wait for your diploma after graduating, you wait for your first house, you wait for your wedding day, you wait for your first child. We all don’t have time to wait for the things we want…and yet life itself has its way of proving to you that you don’t have an option. You have to learn patience early on to be able to survive each and everyday.
Patience is now something that I have learned to embrace internally as well as having patience with the outside world that I have no control over. I am learning to have patience with myself…knowing that I will have bad days and I will have good days. Knowing that it’s okay to cancel plans, it’s okay to call into work, it’s okay to not attend an event because another kiddo will be there. It’s okay. I must have patience while I grieve. I am not who I was…I never will be. I have been softened, I am raw, I am emotional, I am sad, and I am bereaved. As this new version of myself forms…I may want to jump back into a 40 hour a week job, I want to go to all events, I may want to be around other kiddos…but the fact of the matter is…I really am not ready…I may want to be ready right now but I must have patience with myself. And it’s okay…knowing its okay…patience really is a virtue…and it is necessary while we grieve.
I will have patience with myself, I will have patience with others, and I will have patience with the outside world.
We love you Jackie!
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